Eat Me

Ingredients

A new year and all that , resoloutions and directions.

Lately I’ve been thinking alot about motivation. Being lazy.  Self belief . Lack of confidence. Navel gazing.

Is there something that you think that you just can’t do?  That you’re just ‘not good at’ ? 

With me it’s baking.  And there are other things.  Given up before I’d started. Didn’t see the point in trying. Believed I’d fail.

Yesterday I made twelve cakes.   Today I made twelve more.   There is something very pleasing about a cake tin holding twelve cakes.  No more No less.  I like to hear the soft paper Plop-dropping as expectant cake cases land in each tinny crater    waiting fecund for each sweet dollop to come home.    

I didn’t think that I could bake.  I used to buy cake mixes. The cakes never tasted very nice.  I was scared of cake recipes.  I believed that other people could bake cakes but that I couldn’t. That I wasn’t privy to that secret cake making knowledge. That I wasn’t on the guestlist where others were with the band. 

Recipe

At first it looked like all the others.  Nothing special.  But it was the first cake recipe that played ball with me.  It liked me. It rewarded my efforts with cake.

Using what you’ve got

I like cupboard cooking. Happy accident cooking.  Using what’s there. Without having to go out and buy. One recipe. Lots of variations. 

Yesterday chocolate chip cupcakes – left over chocolate coins; the last tablespoon of hot chocolate in the cupboard ; a rediscovered bar of fairtrade orange spice dark chocolate melted to harden tops.   Today Lemon Drizzle cakes. Found a nearly empty box of crystallized orange and lemon slices ,chopped up,fab on tops.   

The proof of the pudding

The most amazing thing though is that my cakes had compliments. My cakes – compliments! Who’d have thought it?  Definately not me, that’s for sure.

Tidying Up

I’ve had to concur that, actually,maybe I’m not quite as bad at baking as I’d convinced myself I was.  And if that goes for baking then maybe, just maybe, it might go for other stuff too. 

We all do it don’t we, put limitations upon ourselves.   This week a small tray of cakes made me think that maybe it is time that I stopped doing that.   And about what could be possible if I did.

So that’s my plan for 2011.  Anybody care to join me?

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About In a Welsh Garden

Artist,Illustrator,Pro-face and body painter,Blogger and Happy Gardener : )
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5 Responses to Eat Me

  1. Eliza says:

    The cakes look beautiful…. I could just reach out and help myself to one! 😀 This is such an inspirational post. Many times I frighten myself from doing things before I even begin….. I’m going to give this some thought. 🙂

  2. Rhian says:

    Yay – go you! I’ve been thinking the same thing lately r.e. self belief & motivation and it’s from something as small as not being able to get out of bed early enough in the morning (silly, I know!) to starting a new blogging venture! But you’ve inspired me this morning. Thank you. x

  3. Kylee@boomerang jane says:

    Inspired. Now. To bake something. Me! That’s unheard of. Thank you.

  4. D.J. Kirkby says:

    Great post though I was distracted a bit by the pics of the gorgeous looking cakes *drool*. I was much the same with making pastry but every few years I’d have another go at it and eventually I ended up making really good flaky pastry. No idea how. It.Just.Happened.

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